Eclipse of the Heart

Heyo lil Mayos!

From the heart of a verbally abused 15 year old in a place that should be a home and a refuge. Leaving would have left a void and staying would've hurt even more. Love was hurt and joy was absent. 

Dear God,

I just can't bother with life. They don't want to see me. I just can't be bothered with my school, home, family, I can't be bothered with anything. I feel like you are not hearing me.

FATHER CAN YOU HEAR ME?

I feel as if I'm in a dark box. Can't talk, can't move. Everything around me is going wrong. I am really trying my best to lay it down at your feet but it seems as if I am doing nothing. I know that suicide and the consequences of it is wrong but no one seems to care so I don't either. I feel invisible. Can you hear me?

I really need your help. The one that is to love me, she does but I can't tell at times. Sometimes it's better to be apart but that hurts. It hurts a lot.

GOD HELP ME!!

God:

Deuteronomy 7:9 - Know therefore that the Lord your God is God; he is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love him and keep his commandments.

2 Timothy 2:13 - If we are faithless, He remains faithful [true to His word and His righteous character], for He cannot deny Himself.

Psalm 91:4 - He will cover you and completely protect you with His pinions, and under His wings you will find refuge; His faithfulness is a shield and a wall. 

2 Thessalonians 3:3  The Lord is faithful, who will establish you and guard you from the evil one.

Hebrews 10:23  Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for he who promised is faithful.

Numbers 23:19 God is not a man, that He should lie, Nor a son of man, that He should repent; Has He said, and will He not do it? Or has He spoken, and will He not make it good?

Lamentations 3:22-23 The LORD’S lovingkindnesses indeed never cease, For His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness.

Deuteronomy 31:6 Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.

Zephaniah 3:17 "The Lord your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing." 

Isaiah 40:29 He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless.

Hebrews 4:16 For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who in every respect has been tested as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore approach the throne of grace with boldness, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.

Deuteronomy 31:6,8 Be strong and bold; have no fear or dread of them, because it is the Lord your God who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not fail you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.

2 Thessalonians 3:16 Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times and in every way.

I keep my word. Never doubt me.

Remember to check on the persons around you and pray for them. Be your brother's keeper. 

By P. K. Hope